great is your faithfulness.

My comfort in my suffering is this:
Your promise preserves my life.
Psalm 119:50

I'm writing this because the whole story is too long to put in a facebook/twitter status update and i don't know how else to mass inform all of my friends about recent major life happenings. so here it is in a pretty simplified version.

discernment has never been my best quality. probably because i'm just not that good at listening. so i make real big plans and hope that God is gracious enough to direct me through them. now, i know that we aren't guaranteed tomorrow and that "in his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps." but i also know that vision proceeds provision and, as with most things in life, complete clarity usually comes after the fact. but i'll get back to this shortly.

so...there are two things. one which determined the other.

first: to put it really simply, my mom is sick. she's been diagnosed with a neuromuscular autoimmune disease called myasthenia gravis. its not cureable but it is treatable. the really unfortunate part is that she doesn't have insurance and needs a major surgery.

second: i'm not about to leave the country before my mom has this surgery. so...i'm not going to peru. this is quite a big and sudden change in plans, but i'm not so worried about it. just because i don't get to go now doesn't mean that i'll never get to go.

so overall, i'm not bummed about the canceled trip. i made plans and they didn't work out. plans are great but they're not mine to hold tightly too. God's timing is perfect and i'm here for such a time as this.
and i have a lot of hope that my mom will get better. right now there's just a lot of processing and waiting. the unknown can be a scary thing. but as i heard earlier today, "you grieve differently when you have hope."

if you could keep my mom in your prayers, i would be so grateful.

Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
Lamentations 3:22-23


love.