i just want to sleep.

What do you do when you're completely overwhelmed?
when you can't look ahead and see an end to all the stress and pressure and everything going on?
what does it mean when your fifteen minute lunch break feels like a guilty pleasure?

cause that's about how i'm feeling right now.

i know that how God helps us grow is always in ways that are not meant to reinforce our natural human tendancies but in ways that breakdown our walls.
so why is it so hard not to feel like this even when i know God's in control?


" On the whole, I do not find Christians, outside of the catacombs, sufficiently sensible of conditions. Does anyone have the foggiest idea what sort of power we so blithely invoke? Or, as I suspect does no one believe a word of it? The churches are children playing on the floor with their chemistry sets, mixing up a batch of TNT to kill a Sunday morning. It is madness to wear ladies' straw hats to church; we should all be wearing crash helmets. Ushers should issue life preservers and signal flares; they should lash us to our pews. For the sleeping God may someday wake and take offense, or the waking God may draw us out to where we can never return."

so what do i do?
hold on for the ride, i guess.